Are you living or existing?

Whoever thought being a 25 year old would cause you to have really your first major life crisis? I know most of you that read my blog know that for the last year I considered myself to be having a sort of crisis. Last year at this time I hated my job, was very miserable living in Columbus, and just wanted an all around change. I was determined to change my life. I couldn't stand to remain in that situation much longer. Well here we are a year later and I was thinking tonight am I living or just existing?

I really am not sure how I can answer that question. I changed jobs (my new job is a lot better), but I didn't relocate like I so badly wanted to. I don't know whether I can consider myself living or existing. I travel quite a bit. At least once a month I am going out of town somewhere. I can't remember the last time I spent a full month at my home in Columbus. I feel like when I am in Columbus on the weekends I am just existing. I'm not truly living. I feel like when I go out of town I am able to live. I usually have good times when I go out of town. I dread coming back to Columbus to just exist. Now don't get me wrong. Some weekends when I am in Columbus I am out and enjoying the town. Like last night I was out with some friends and we had a good time, but its not the excitement that I have when I am out of town. Something is just missing.

As a 25 year old who will be 26 in a couple of months I want to live! I am tired of just existing here in Columbus. I want to move somewhere that I can live. Where that is, hell I am not sure if I have the right place in mind but I have some ideas. When it's all said and done I just want to be living and not existing. Life is too short not to live. I have decided that I have got to live the rest of my life. If something isn't making me happy I will change it.

I am America's Nightmare and I am trying to live!