You can't judge a book by it's cover!

I just finished watching Keyshia Cole's reality show and I am flooded with emotion. Keyshia is one of today's hottest R&B singers. She is living in the glitz and glamour of the music industry. Her reality show gives you a look into her life outside the fame. I would have never guessed Keyshia went through all that she has been through. She grew up in a foster home because her mother was a crackhead. She doesn't know who her biological father is and she is going through a lot personally with her family. I know many of us would have never guessed on first glance that Keyshia was going through this. I guess the saying you can't judge a book by it's cover is correct!

Many times I try and stay positive in my life. I don't like to be brought down by negative energy. I am a firm believer in that if you let the negative energy get into your bubble then all you will produce is negativity. I like to be positive and keep positive people around me. Many times friends call on me for advice. One thing I have been trying to do is keep my advice positive. Since I have matured I try to approach giving advice in a mature way.

What I have come to learn from many is that you can't judge a book by its cover. I have many friends and on the outside things look great for them, but deep down inside many are going through many battles that outsiders would have no idea. Many times people feel like its just them going through things, but in reality everyone is going through something. Just because things look good on the outside doesn't mean everything is clean on the inside.

That's where I come into this. I live this life like everything in the world is perfect. Many would say I am putting on a front. I don't like to be open with people when things are going on with me. I always feel like everyone has there own issues and mine are no more important than the next person. I don't want to burden someone with my troubles, but the truth is I have many great friends that would be willing to listen to me or even help me out. I just can't see myself becoming that vulnerable. I am a very independent person and I like to believe that I can take on the world on my own. The truth is that I need help just like everyone else. I need advice, instead of always giving it out. I need to be more honest when people ask me is everything ok. My friends I can be honest with. These are people that I want to be honest with me, but sometimes I hide what's going on with me from them.

I have a confession. I am going through some things right now. I don't know. You know it seems like when the devil strikes he hits hard! I have been questioning if I will make it. I am trying to stay strong, but at night I just want to break down and cry. I want those to read this to understand this. You can't judge a book by it's cover! I bet most properly don't even know I am having surgery in the beginning of January! I don't know why I try and keep everything bottled up inside. I need to let things out and I am thankful for this blog because it gives me a chance to do that. Even though I am still holding back on here. Everyone just keep me in your prayers! I would truly appreciate it.

Part II of His Story will come soon. I just haven't felt like continuing it. I have been trying to clear my mind and get things together. I am America's Nightmare...