In Search of Happiness!

What is happiness? According to Merriam-Webster’s online dictionary, happiness is state of well-being and contentment or a pleasurable or satisfying experience. I’ve been thinking about my life a lot lately. My 24th birthday is approaching this week and I am examining and reflecting on what I have achieved in the last 23 years. Have I personally achieved the happiness that I have desired? Let’s take a stroll through my life.

During my short 23 years of life I have done all the right things. I graduated high school in the top 20 students according to grade point average. I went on to college and graduated cum laude in four years with a bachelor’s degree in accounting. I went on and got a master’s degree in accounting. I got a job with one of the largest accounting firms in the world. My life so far has been going according to the book. Doing everything right. Trying not to disappoint anyone and making sure I did everything to make sure everyone was happy with what I accomplished. The biggest question is whether or not I am happy? Have I achieved the happiness that I have longed for?

Well achieving happiness is hard. Sometimes you have to let people in your life go if they aren’t adding anything of value to your life. During my undergraduate years, I took a long look at my life and decided that a number of my “friends” didn’t belong in my life. We were going in different directions and I was getting anything out of our friendship anymore. I was happy after doing this. It was a big relief. I knew if any of them were supposed to be my friends that we would eventually reconnect. Now, as I reflect on my life I feel like I need to do the same thing again. There are many people in my life that aren’t doing anything for me. I take no pleasure with having to deal with them and now comes a time for me to clean house. If you are reading this, don’t take it personal but I am looking for happiness. If you aren’t offering and helping me achieve this then I am going to just cut you off.

As most of you know that read my blog, I have dedicated May to be a positive month. I only want positive people around me. I am done with the negative. Last week I watched as some of my fraternity brothers received their diplomas. It was exciting and I recalled when I received my degree. I was happy and nervous at the same time. I didn’t know what to expect. I didn’t know if I really knew what I wanted in life. I thought many times if I had chosen the right career. Did I get a degree in the right field? Am I going to like my job? What if I don’t like what I am doing? Then what will I have to do?

Well these questions have crossed my mind numerous times throughout the last year. I have been on my job for almost a year and I am currently in a state of indifference. I don’t know if I am doing the right thing. There are things that I do like about my current job and there are things that I can do without. I make a nice salary, so money definitely isn’t the issue. I really haven’t a clue. I am looking for happiness. I think sometimes that I will be disappointing people if I do decide to go back to school. Some will think I am crazy and some will admire my decision.
I think about moving too. I like being closer to my family, by living in Ohio, but I really don’t want to live here. I want to go out and try something different. I think a new city would be perfect for me. I have been strongly thinking about relocating to another city. I know my family would hate that I would be farther away, but I have to do what is going to make me happy. What should I do?

I know one thing is that I am looking for complete happiness. I am now just content with my life. I want to be excited about what I am doing. As my 24th birthday approaches I plan on making a decision on the next step in my life. So I know wha tit will be? Not yet. I may surprise someone with my decision, but I am looking for happiness. Everyone is entitled to it and if you are unhappy you should do something about it. I am encouraging everyone to be happy.

I am America’s Nightmare…